It was the second time I had tried a Millennium Hoffman LSD tab. I found myself on Birger Jarlsgatan 24, at my workplace—the digital creative design agency Lightyears Integral Communications—late at night with my slightly younger friend, Johan. This was supposed to be the occasion when he engaged with the substance for the first time, but he was reluctant to cross the threshold.
I remember, at one point during the trip, lying on the fine parquet floor, utterly captivated by the endless patterns dancing within the woods grain. From every crack in the floorboards, tiny spirals of smoke seemed to emerge, each with its own personality and life, softly and lovingly singing their silent songs to me.
Earlier, when I had been in the bathroom, I both sensed and experienced how the pastel colors of the wall tiles were melting together, somehow embracing the whole of me in a clay-like, neon-colored mass.
It felt as if the space I occupied was the only room in the universe—expanding and contracting in sync with my breath, and the rhythms of the music playing out in the studio.
But now, as I lay there contemplating the floor, it seemed as though I could peer right through it, exploring its undiscovered depth—until suddenly I burst into uncontrollable laughter:
“Johan! My best friend! I’ve figured it all out! We can do whatever we want! Do you get it!?
I can do whatever I want!
I can do whatever I want!”
A few hours later, I woke up on his couch in Gribbylund, still wearing my gray-blue ribbed Filippa K sweater. We had taken a taxi home, and Johan spent the rest of the night DJing soft IDM and braindance tunes for a sleeping David, until I came back to earthly consciousness.
It was a beautiful morning, full of vitality and life. I left just before 6:00 AM, as the sun was rising. The air was misty, and there was dew on my black Acne jacket.
As I walked home, listening to “Ralome” by Plaid, all my experiences moved like music through me in the days that followed. Johan later said that this must have been one of the most enlightening events of his life.
