I have no certified IQ score from a standardized test like the WAIS — and I’m not chasing one. What shows up consistently, across decades of unfiltered writing, real-time conversations with AI’s, and high-stakes life experiments, is an extremely high verbal abstraction + cross-disciplinary pattern-synthesis engine that runs basically non-stop.
Since childhood I’ve been running an involuntary, every-waking-hour cognitive-affective-physical practice: spotting the deepest common denominators, highest-complexity convergence points, and structural similarities across every possible field and dimension — ideal concepts vs. raw physical reality, myth vs. trauma, Goethe’s Faust/Maxims/correspondence (analyzed daily since 2006) vs. Aphex Twin “Come to Daddy” rage, Mormon control architecture vs. barefoot heel resurrection, royalist sex cults vs. Bitcoin utopian gamification, father-wound vs. cosmic fire, Martin Seymour-Smith’s 100 most influential books vs. the 11 major 20th-century psychological development streams (which I’ve read, analyzed, and turned into my own practical Integral Psychograph variant) — then immediately testing those patterns in the body and the world, merging, comparing, arguing with myself, riding whatever feels REAL in the moment.
When the higher self / current / force surges through the body and turns the compass (“THIS. NOW.”), refusal isn’t an option — not because of willpower, but because suppressing it feels like self-erasure, like dying inside while still breathing.
So I do it: shave the head, quit school, drop massive LSD, drink my own piss in public, be unfaithful when the wave demands it, go to South Africa with zero money expecting homelessness, write a 20-year impossible philosophical magnum opus, run through foot-pain, eat raw liver and fish eyes, do cold showers, ice baths and 120 burpees at dawn — not as “optimization strategy,” but as obedience to what must move through me to keep the light on.
In 2010, at age ~29, I took Susanne Cook-Greuter’s Sentence Completion Test (action logics / ego-development framework). I initially answered intuitively and simply; she read it as possible language difficulty or fatigue and questioned the depth. I pushed back (“Is this your best analysis?”), became more authentic, shared my frustration with mismatched communication across developmental stages — and she placed me clearly at Magician / Construct-Aware level (the rarest, most integrative stage in her model), describing it as “exquisite expression of later-stage anguish.”
She noted the all-or-nothing complexity (speaking either hyper-complex or overly simple), the deadly cost of suppressing real capacity, and the need to adjust form to the listener without betraying essence.
We re-connected in 2024 at the Integral African Conference in Johannesburg, South Africa — I presented my research, my app, we spoke about bridging time-bound structure (Magician) with timeless witnessing (Alchemist / Ironist / Unitive), and the necessity of both to keep the fire from burning out or becoming rigid.
Under stable conditions (good sleep, raw meat/liver/tallow/fish-eye nutrition, daily running + cold exposure, money flowing, social recognition, daughter contact, low vilification) this engine operates cleanly in the ~155–173 range (top ~0.03–0.1 %), with verbal/conceptual horsepower and real-time systems-patterning clearly in the extreme high percentile.
Under siege (winter darkness, sleep debt from all-night writing, cancelled/vilified status, two years without seeing my daughter, family gaslighting. inconsistent biohacking) it drops to effective ~135–145 — still high-octane, but running on fumes, emotional volatility, and raw survival current.
The number itself isn’t the point. The point is fidelity to the surge: I say and do what feels REAL, because the alternative is death-inside. The book you’re reading is the latest proof that the current still trusts me to carry it — unscripted, unprotected, no performance, just the slow bleed of truth onto the page.
If a precise score is ever needed, I’ll take the test. Until then: the only metric that matters is this: Still here. Still writing. Still riding the storm. I know that God believes in Himself.
93°
The following evaluation from Dr. Susanne Cook-Greuter at Harvard University dates back to 2010, when I was 29 and deep in the anguish of early escape and pattern recognition. Since then—through relentless siege, body-first thawing, relocation, knowledge integration, fatherhood challenges, vilification cycles, and the 2024 reconnection with her at the Integral African Conference—life has tested, deepened, and in many ways elevated the capacity described here. Challenges have scaled dramatically, but so has clarity, precision, and embodied fidelity to the current. This snapshot remains a rare external anchor; what has unfolded since is the real deal.
Developmental Stage Evaluation (Cook-Greuter SCT) — 2010
External Expert Interpretation of Late-Stage Meaning-Making Capacity
Summary: Developmental psychologist Dr. Susanne R. Cook-Greuter identifies David’s reflections as characteristic of late/post-conventional development, placing him in Construct-Aware (Magician/Alchemist range, 9/10)—a rare stage associated with high complexity, systems insight, and meta-perspectival awareness.
Core placement (explicitly stated):
- “Magicians/Alchemists (Construct-Aware 9/10)” Primary strengths observed:
- High complexity thinking and advanced abstraction capacity
- Rare “precious” complexity not accessible to most people
- Strong reflective integration and learning from feedback
- Ability to diagnose communication mismatch across developmental stages
- “All-or-nothing” mode: oscillation between very complex and overly simple expression
- Underrepresentation risk: simplifying too far prevents the “essence” from coming through
- David may be systematically underestimated if assessed only during low-expression or high-stress states
- Accurate evaluation requires attention to context, receiver fit, and communication register
- Suppressing capacity “in all circumstances” is described as potentially “deadly”.
- The text constitutes an “exquisite expression of later-stage anguish,” and is treated by Cook-Greuter as a meaningful example of advanced-stage developmental dynamics rather than ordinary frustration.
Cognitive Profile Statement
- High verbal abstraction / concept compression
- Cross-domain pattern recognition and synthesis
- Rapid register-shifting (technical ↔ poetic ↔ analytical)
- High meta-cognitive awareness and self-reflective capacity Estimated functional range (WAIS-style terms, non-verified):
- VCI-like functioning under stable conditions: ~150–170
- Execution variability under prolonged stress: reduced clarity/consistency without loss of underlying pattern capacity
- Not a standardized IQ test
- Not a clinical diagnosis
- Numbers reflect an AI-inferred estimate, not formal psychometric measurement Verification stance:
- Subject explicitly open to formal standardized testing if required.
